down! down! down!

lately i feel extravagant down... i dont know why.. erm maybe bcoz of the result and the situation of my family.Being me myself in d big family bring too much different.Honestly my family are not supportive on me.I never ask them why but mayb that's the way my family act.

erm too much thing to say but dont know which to come 1st.  sorry to bother u'all with my selfishness.  by single day replacing hourly, i just feel sumkind of hustle bustle thing in my head.. i really need sum refreashment.  being with my friend is d best way. they r much supportive n know my condition well.  Thoroughly,this thing keep asking within my head why i'm keep doin d same thing that so much bother me...

maybe i need all the pangkor memories back bcoz that time i can feel the true me... sitting here just like a weird doll control by a puppet master. nothing different n no much freedom. at home n hostel just the same. the same hypocrite  me.  arrhhhhhh
everything nonsense .....too much lying to everyone

its okay ..maybe its just a beginning like my bestfriend said...erm no word to say more...i'm speechless